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another unsleep night. smoking like hell tonight. again, i being thinking nonsense again. i begin to pondering why i would become a smoker. i still remember, i start my first cigarette at 5 year old . that time me, my 3rd brother and my cousin steal, yeah steal..a cigarette from my uncle and run to jungle just for taste it. Like ohters kid we just wondering why those Big guys like to smoke and we all would like to try. as you all can predict, we suffer a lot from the smoke. Really cannot understand why this thing would be interest by those big guys. doesn't try any more since that time untill form 2. when in bar, friend pass me a cigareete again. first i rejected, but after a few glass of carlsberg, doesn't really care already ..^^. start from that time, keep on reject even others pass its to me, except a few time when i was down. when i really start ? can count on when me buy my first pack cigarette at the end of year 2006. i still remember that time, around 2 am and i still fooling around at klang, don't have the key of my house that time yet. and parent went out for a trip. so the only thing i can do is wait my brother back home..so i went to 7-11 buy a pack of cigarette to spend my time.i keep smoking that night untill my brother come home at around 4 am. after that day, i began fancy to its. fisrt at all, a pack fo a month, after that a week , then a day , start from 14 pack to 24 pack.

sometime, i really dont understand why i smoke, its seem like got something inside. some which i want. i been trying to ask my friend who are also a smoker... people always say that smoker smoke just for pretend "ying", want to look like more "mature" , it mgiht be some of smoker are think like this way. but for me , certainly no..

i did ask my friends why we smoke? one said he smoke because of a girl..other one say he feel himself a bit "yeng" when smoke, and he say every smoker does. doesn't really agree with his point of opinion....even if my house have no mirror, we also always can see those la la zhai smoke on the street ...does they look "yeng"?Does they look "mature"?.. i doubt = =...

i only know that when i want to smoke in mid night or sometime ..and cant find any more cigarette to smoke..that feeling really would going killing me.

in conclusion, i find out every smoker have their own story or own sake to smoke, some for pretend "yeng", some want themself to become mature, some smoke for something , and some smoke for nothing.......like me..

it is very curious thing when people know smoking is not good for their health by still they smoke. Why?Dont ask me..I dont know also...

I only know when nothing to do, when i was down, when mid night coming..when i angry ..when no body understand me...when i pondering nonsense... only cigareete is accomapny with me...

so smoker ..what is your sake to smoke?....